Life Lesson: I am not my own....????

How many times have we heard this, read it, even maybe studied it and still for me it hasnt sunk in?

1 Corinthians 6:19-20 What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? 20 For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's.


I am not my own, I am not my own.... I can say this and try to get it into my head of understanding but I must be honest and share I do not believe it has penetrated my heart. I feel so compelled to share what God has just revealed to me, in the hopes someone out there will connect and not feel alone. I believe way to often we do feel like we are the only ones and we get "stuck" if you will in it. Why do I float in and out of this?


Could it be because I like to think "I" can manipulate God and tell Him what I think... I am not my own.....


I do not get to tell God what a circumstance should look like, I am not my own.
I do not to get to tell God how people should act, respond, or treat me, I am not my own.
I do not get to tell God I dont think its fair to invest in others for them to turn on you, I am not my own.
I do not get to tell God no more I have had enough, I am not my own.
I do not get to tell God find someone else for the job, I am not my own.
I do not get to tell God I want to protect myself from hurts and being wounded, I am not my own.
I do not get to tell God what I want, when I want it, how I want it, I am not my own.
I do not get to tell God my will be done, I am not my own.


I am not my own, means I am bought with a price. Someone else owns me. I am at His disposal.


The verse is clear, I am the temple that houses the Living God's Holy Spirit. It has been given to me to direct me, guide me, establish me, and work me. I am to glorify God in my bodyand my spirit because they belong to God. Every time I do what I want I rebell against God. I quench the spirit.


My Spirit should resemble He who has taken up residence in me. More times than not I try to get the HOly Spirit to look like me.


I have recently gone through a challenge that had exhausted me and rather than allow God to work in and through me more time than not I got frustrated and felt the need to protect myself. I hate myself for it, cause I know the truth, I know I am not my own, but allowed "SELF" to rule my mind and battle my heart. I went from the spiritual to the physical, I took it personally which is self and did you know, I am not my own. ugggggg

What a sticky web we can get ourselves caught in. For if I stayed in the spiritual I would be obedient, but guilted by others who look through human lenses accusing I dont care or prideful or ignorant to hurting people (even those that weigh you down). Feeling my pain yet? Those looking at it from a spiritual perspective can identify the freedom to be obedient despite the cost.

Or I have falter in the human sphere in disobedience, I now suffer at the hands of those with human lenses say "Oh, look, see she isnt geniune, she isnt loving, she isnt patient, etc" and if they look through the spiritual lense, I'm in the flesh missing my blessings.

We are doomed if we do and doomed if we dont, however the only one the resembles being set free is the one that you hold your head up high with humility and obedience no matter what everyone chooses to see. Going through this battle you actually feel assaulted to the point you move to protect yourself. uggghhhh


I have repented to God and well, if I have seemed frustrated to anyone and appeared to protect "SELF" please forgive me. I have come to find through the revelation of the Holy Spirit that as I have allowed the enemy to wear me down that I have become defensive to anything looking like what has tired me so.

It boils down to the conditions of our hearts, my heart. I love women, people and pray for them I sometimes just like to avoid getting messy stuck in the drama.

Point to Ponder: everyone has an opinion, motive and agenda, everyone struggles with self, most people are dealing with great insecurities that we cannot battle for they are the demons of ones mind and only the Holy Spirit can set them free. All we can do is pray and realize most dont even realize they are in drama. So do not take it in personally because it really has nothing to do with me or you it has everything to do with their surrendering relationship to God. Its ok to step away and give God room. We have enough battles of our own, let us focus on examining ourselves before taking on the war of someone else's mind.


I praise God for the godly sisters HE has put in my life who ALWAYS first love Jesus, truth and righteousness more than me second love me for me without judgment, third for always pointing me to Jesus and the scriptures and praying with me. How freeing is that!!!

So basically, I am not my own. If I choose to live in the spiritual I will rise above untouched by the distractions, however if I choose to live in the human sphere I will be in the mud and allow self to make it personal. Thats where the emotions and feelings reside and I dont want to invite them over for tea, yano what I mean.

The moral of my life lesson is to be obedient to God and know that you know we are not our own. Stay in the spiritual realm that illuminates the love of Jesus.Be prepared: Mt 10:16 ¶ Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves. Lord help me to utilize this verse and remember you art with me, and you have my back. We live among the judas of the world.

Let Grace, Mercy and Forgiveness reside with you and the Love of Jesus will pour out of you no matter what.

The best part of learning is that as we stumble and fall at the same things, it should be less and less difficult to get back up and tear it down!!!

Lord thank you for loving me, and providing mature spiritual support you have established for me and the constant teaching that i am not but I know "I am". Thank you for always revealing truth and for allowing me to witness your transformation power!!!! Jesus I adore you, love you and worship you!!!! Praise you for deliverance. Amen

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Whats the difference?

There is no sin which is uncommon to any particular person. In our lifetime we will all have similar experiences through temptations. Yet why does it seem some swim to victory and others sink in defeat?

Lets set the stage: the place= the mind....the main character= self #1 and self#2....the evil counterpart (you know there always is one)= satan himself and the knight in shining armour= Jesus/Holy Spirit.

Ok so the story goes, self #1 is self motivated, self righteous, self centered and wants what they want when they want it not matter how they get it. Self #1 is always telling itself how great it thinks it is, dont need anyone can do it on my own and isnt genuinely concerned for anyone but #1. On a fine sunny day self is minding its own business, when suddenly self is attacked by the evil counterpart and self goes from happy, content, and peaceful to a wicked wrath, jealousy and restlessness. Self is aware of the surroundings changing yet not sure why, in the struggle of trying to figure out what just happened, self is taken down and paralyzed in a state of shock and is defeated. Self is taking care of self the best of self's ability and well quite frankly it just doesnt seem to be working.

This goes on for sometime, self finds self in and out of its feelings and emotions and self notices they change! One minute we are in love the next we hate, one minute we want to give the next we take, one minute we want to spend time, the next we start an argument, one minute we are supportive the next we are tearing them down and the list goes on, and on, and on and on.........
Can you identify with this story just a little bit?

Then we have another self, this is self#2. Self #2 is God centered, God reliant, and God motivated. Self #2 spends alot of time daily in God's Word. Self #2 is humble, examines itself, and is always needing God. On one sunny day Self #2 minding self's business is joyful, content, and peaceful until all of a sudden self #2 is hit and overcome with a hardship of evil. It is ugly and hateful, it is jealousy and insecurity, it hurts and its lonely. Self #2 like self #1 realizes something has changed a battle has taken place and now asks itself what it should do. Rather than trying to figure out the details of what where and why, Self #2 calls out for help to its knight in shinning armour and starts to use the weapons given to tear down the thoughts that have attacked self's mind.

Self #2 has studied and learn to identify the enemy's attacks, lies, deceit and destruction. With the Word of God planted in self's heart and mind from daily attention, self is able to get through the struggle, tired but unharmed from the distraction. Self #2 lifts up grace to the people tied to those emotions and understands we wrestle not with flesh and blood. Self #2 resumes after a time of warring a peaceful mental position in the Holy Spirit.

So what makes one different than the other? My sisters, we all struggle with all the same demons. One more violent than the other. One more sinister than the other. The difference in so many is that one is prepared in the Word of God to use it as a weapon to defeat the enemy. Now this is totally just an analogy through a revelation I have learned in the Lord.

How do we go through life lessons with grace, love and forgiveness? Understand that the God of the universe is over it all! We may not always understand why right away, but know this we must be in our scriptures daily seeking and hungering after God. When are hearts are far from His ways we set ourselves up for a fall.

Let us all repent daily unto the Lord, asking forgiveness for the thoughts we allow. We must remember God is a God of unity in the Body first and foremost. However there are times that we must exercise the safeguards He gives us for discernment if something or someone is being abused. The most important part of what makes us different should be the condition of our hearts. They should be pliable, soft, bendable and conformable to the image and transformation of Jesus. That means no matter what, our hearts should be free from sin and the ugly demons that can distract our minds. The KEY is to tear them down while just an imagination before they settle and take root in our hearts.

The difference is some are in the Word and willing to live out Jesus His way, and well, others are still struggling to get there. Only God knows our hearts, but rest assured they will be revealed. Its good if they are, there is hope for us yet through accountability and discipleship.

Grace for Grace, let us live unto the Lord personally being obedient with what He has called our SELVES to do individually.

So self 1 vs self 2 doesn't make one better than the other, just different. One chooses to disobey the other obey, one chooses to do it God's way the other their way and the list of opposites goes on.

Let us not delay our blessings one more minute move forward and not backwards Jer 7:24 tells us.

There will be times things will seem illogical, just be obedient and leave the consequences to God. Exercise discernment you are not a doormat, but a daughter of the King. Be prepared daughters for the King cometh may you be found with oil in your lamps and may you be adorned for your bridegroom!

In Jesus Love....Walk in Victory!!!!

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The Attitude of Rest

Let's be truthful here ~ Being a mom is hard! "Train your children in the way they should go and they will not depart from it". I truly believe this, but the job of training them, even when shared with your husband, is quite challenging. With two boys entering middle school next year and two elementary school-age girls, lately our house has been full of "know-it-alls". This weekend God provided us with a clear snapshot of true training, after whipping us all into shape!

I am reading a book called, I am not, but I know I Am by Lou Giglio and last night's chapter was all about understanding the Sabbath rest. He explains that God didn't order the seventh day to be restful because God himself was weary from creating the universe and everything in it, but to be still and reflect on how great all that He had done was. Keeping the Sabbath holy is actually setting apart the day to take notice of what God has done in our lives during the week leading up to that day. To reflect on, to behold God's power ~ what He did with us, through us, even without us. Doing this will remind us of who God is. Actually practicing this with our families and friends on the Sabbath will honor God with true worship and remind us that God is sovereign, He's real and He works.

My husband and I practiced this tonight at Sunday Linner (lunch/dinner) and it was quite interesting to hear the kids reframe their sentences from "I am thankful that God let US do . . . or let US have . . ." to "I am thankful that God used US to. . . or showed us His power when He . . ." It's all about God, not at all about us or what we've done. Celebrating the Sabbath and keeping it holy is a training of our attitude that should last throughout the week, a shift in perspective. Being grateful for His hand on us and around us. I have heard it said that you can't have a grateful heart and a complaining tongue.

One of my children was having a ton of trouble with murmuring, complaining and backtalking this weekend. His attitude towards the Sabbath rest was a total mess. After trying to correct Him several times, I finally said, "God you've got to help me! I can't get through to him." And then the revelation hit me. "Train him up . . ." Following the list of consequences I reemed out at him, I reached out and held him until he stopped crying and we had a heart-to-heart. You see our sin areas are much the same, as our child argues with his parents, I have been known to fight for my thoughts to be heard as well. What triggers frustration in us is similar, too. God showed me that to truly worship Him on the Sabbath or any day, to truly rest in Him, we've got to have control over the battle in our minds~ between thoughts and feelings, lies and truth.

As part of our children's training, I realized it was important to teach my son this weekend just how to follow God's way of tearing down exalted thoughts that had been controlling his mood with us and towards God. I shared that just like a war has two sides, there are two kinds of thoughts battling one another: The truth planted by God and the lie planted by Satan backed by the persuasion of the world, and they both trigger an emotion. If the emotion we are feeling is provoking us to behave in the opposite manner of the fruits of the Spirit, (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness and self-control), then must take captive the thought encouraging such a response. For example, if we feel jealous that someone else was chosen to have a special treat or win the ____ (fill in the blank) we must take captive the thought, "It's not fair" or "they like her better than me". Just like a war prisoner, we must capture the root issue of the thought, measure it against the Word of God. If it doesn't produce good fruit and if it is against the teachings of our Lord Jesus Christ then we must cast it out, tear it down. In order to do this right, we've got to battle the lie with truth. For if we simply cast out the lie, we've left an empty space. In our children, we've got to take the time to fill the empty space with something truthful and good or they'll find something else to fill it with, like someone else's opinion.

My son's attitude of resting in God's holiness was restored tonight, not because of the work that I had done but because of the revelation that God brought and the humility practiced by my son. Just one more example of God working in a typical family. Part of our massive job as moms is to correct and edify with Truth. If the hearts and minds of our children are storehouses of Truth, then they will walk with an attitude of rest, resting in the very truth that God works out all things in His sovereign plan through us, with us, and without us. We can rest in the fact that He will accomplish His goals and if we follow His command to train up our children, then we can look forward to watching Him use them as a small piece in His BIG Story. What a great reward!

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